And now it's come to "the talk"

The all-important, "where is our relationship going" talk. So soon? Yes, I said something stupid yesterday and jumped the gun and thought about things too much and analyzed everything to the point of getting worked up over nothing. I hate it when I do that.

And I know it's still early on. It's only been a month since we first talked and only two dates have passed. Actually, one "meet and greet" and one official date. Maybe we are moving too fast. I don't think so but then, I always jump in to the fray head on and don't look back especially when I feel good about something. I just move with it.

Maybe I scared Chris when I said I missed him but that's what I felt and I go with my gut feelings. He must have freaked out and thought I was needy, which I'm not. He still does the phone calling at night and I let him shoot me the first YM. I'd prefer that he pursue me rather than I pursue him. Must be my traditional sense of dating.

Yesterday, he asks me if I'm upset or something and if I want to slow things down. I couldn't keep myself in check because I was thinking way too much into things and I retorted back and said that things are already slow, how much slower does he want it to be. Then he said that if I have issues... and that really took the cake. I was curt and distant after that.

Now it's come to this. I have a knack for screwing things up, don't I?